Good Afternoon beautiful people, it is Caliyia and welcome back to another weekly entry here at Under the Layers!!!! Today is March 28, 2021 and does anyone else see how ugly it is outside, like it looks like it is literally about to storm and I hate storms. Anyways I hope you people are enjoying your Sunday and are excited about what this week holds, like I official start my new job at Target this week and I am just filled with a whole bunch of different emotions. I am going to head in there with a positive mindset and know that I can be the best employee I can be. Now enough with all of the sappy stuff and let us get into why you people are here and what we are going to be talking about. Today I will be basically exposing myself of all of my bad habits and I am going to explain ways I can break them. I wanted to do this towards the end of March because, April just gives me that spring cleaning and starting fresh vibe. These three months that have already flew by in the New Year haven’t really been very substantial to me. I want to rebuild myself and that has to start with getting rid of the old bad habits that I am use to doing in everyday life. Yup you know what time it is, intro time!!!!!! If you would like a little more of Liyia you can check it out on my YouTube channel that is CaliyiaLanaye. If you want just a little more insight into my life, feel free to check out my homepage where you can see brief segments about present-day Caliyia. Remember that throughout each week you will also still learn more about me since I am still learning about myself. That has been handled, so now let’s begin discussing my bad habits and how I plan on breaking them.
Bad Habits
Habit #1~ BEING NEGATIVE AND KEEPING NEGATIVE PEOPLE AROUND ME! : I struggle with this and the thing is I do not know why my mind goes straight to the negative; I need to stop basing my life on scenarios that have been made in my head and just actually try something. Whether that is making a consequence, every time I have something negative to say I will take on this horrible bad habit. Also, friendships, bonds, relationships, or whatever the case may be I cannot become a strong open minded person with negative people around me so no hard feelings, but if you don’t hear from me anymore there is a reason behind it.
Habit #2~ BODY SHAMING/ WORRYING ABOUT MY FLAWS! : I need to find acceptance in the body God designed personally for me, if that means treating her like she is fine wine so be it. Everyone has insecurities, but I cannot focus and label everything that I just simply do not like about myself that would take a few hours. With that being said, I am going to normalize my body becoming my bestfreind I have so much resentment towards myself because I believe that I can look better. From now on my weight loss journey should not reflect my body just so I can wear crop tops and a bikini. My weight loss journey will be overall just losing fat and gaining muscle.
Habit #3~ NOT EXCERSING/ NOT GETTING ENOUGH SLEEP! : I am going to be very honest with everyone who reads this I have not worked out more than 5 times since this year has started, and I do not think I have gotten an efficient amount of sleep ether. Both of these are coming to an end I know if I spend less time on social media I can free up time for sleep because these bags and dark circles under my eyes at 17 is not cute. As far as working out I am about to push myself to a limit I’ve never done before, because I want a dump truck and I will get a dump truck plan and simple.
Habit #4~ LETTING ANXIETY AND BEING ANXIOUS CONTROL MY LIFE! : I am so sick and tired of being nervous because my body does not know how to handle new encounters, such as big crowds, meeting new people, going out, actually having fun. I feel like my anxiety likes to trap me inside of a bubble full of overthinking thoughts. It is time to overpower my anxiety; I am ready to bring my outgoing spirit to light instead of this awkward standoffish vibe I give off to people that I do not know. This will take time but I will achieve this goal by the end of April and just have to be okay with stepping out of my comfort zone.
Habit #5~ RUNNING AWAY FROM MY PROBLEMS! : This bad habit has caused me many different problems over the years, and I am going to start handling my problems hands-on as soon as they happen instead of sweeping them under the rug. Some steps that I plan on taking is acknowledging the problem as soon as it happens if it makes me feel any type of way that it needs to be addressed immediately. There is no room for unnecessary stress in my life and even though I do not like confrontation my happiness will be my first priority always.
Okay so I do feel like I picked some very strong bad habits that control me on an everyday basis and I will be trying to get rid of these ASAP. I never really knew how bad everything was that I have been doing until you write it down, and see that you do this on the regular; I most definitely recommend doing this because there is no deadline on self-improvement. I just appreciate myself for taking the time out to actually do this because old Caliyia would feel like it was a waste of time or she would say she has better things to do then face her problems. It takes baby steps to achieve the goals you want and that is fine, because as long as you are trying that is already an improvement on what you have been doing. Now let’s start discussing the awesome things we will be discussing and doing this week!!! I am excited that I can finally announce that on Tuesday I will be “Drawing my Life!” I have pushed this agenda back for weeks because I just did not know how to approach it but, I am finally ready to take on the challenge to look back at this memory to see all that I have overcome throughout the years. Then on Thursday, I will be documenting to you guys my spring cleaning process!! Now I know what you are thinking, “Caliyia that is so boring, no one wants to read about you cleaning” I get it things like that do not excite everyone as it excites me. Nevertheless, it is the beginning of April which to me is the time to enjoy the fresh air and a clean house. This week will of course going to be focusing on YouTube, Blogging, I still have not mastered my working out schedule but we will figure it out, and my final days with my current jobs. With all that being said I will be dropping my next YouTube video tomorrow, it will be a “GET READY WITH ME/ DISCUSSING STEREOTYPES THAT NEED TO GO AWAY!” Later in the week, I do plan on filming a video based off the draw my life segment I will be doing here on Tuesday, but I do not know how to construct that yet so we will see. I am glad that I am getting on the right track of everything and finally putting attention towards the thing I love. That wraps up today’s post. Please look out for that and Like, Comment, and Subscribe! I hope someone likes what I’m putting down on here lol, but if not at least I am entertaining myself. PEACE!
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